I have a dream~

Lots of them, actually.
I’m a Dreamer. Although I’m not really sure if that’s a good or a bad thing.
I have a habit of dreaming off whenever I can, about whatever pops up in my mind. Wich means it’s not always nice, but still, love to dream.
Dreams about what can be, what could have been..
Some dreams can be fulfilled if I really set my mind to it.
But I’m scared.
Scared for rejection, scared for failure.

But then again;


And people always say that you need to dream big, so yeah.
And, you know what?
I’ve been thinking. [Oh dear lord].


This year, I want to make at least ONE of my dreams come true.



I need to loosen up, shake off my insecurity and just do it.
Che, even though I’m saying [writing?] this now, I know it’s going to take a while.
But I know I can do it.
I also already know wich dream it’s going to be.
No, I won’t tell here, not yet.
I need to work for it, I know that. But I have people who support me.
It will take a while, and a lot of guts, before I can show results.
Ghe, I’m not even sure if I’m going to succeed, but I can dream, right?





I’m kinda really frustrated right now.

If you follow me on twitter andstuff you might be like  /YOUDONTSAY/

But why am I frustrated?



-I don’t understand shit of the patterns of my cosplay. And it’s a cosplay I really want to do too!

-I can’t quite figure out how to make bootcovers of an other cosplay that I also really wanna do!

-I am excited for animecon, I really am. But there’s also something that makes me feel a bit uncomfortable, or better, someone. It’s like a nasty feeling in my stomach. And I want it OUT OUT OUT!

-Jobhunting is being a DISASTER. It’s depressing. Very.

-I feel like I’m keeping way to much to myself, but I can’t get myself to open up. I just can’t. I think this is probably the most frustrating thing of all.


I wanna curl up in my bed and sleep. But instead I’m going to read blogs and drool over new make up collections and stuff until Glee’s on. I think, Because I really wanna see the new Glee. Because I can’t just go and hide myself whenever the fuck I want. Life goes on you know. Andstuff.


/End of rant

Light and Darkness – Prologue

There he goes, through the rain that’s pouring down.
Silently he cries, though no one sees.
His black, leathery cape fluttered in the non-existing wind, when he turns around at the sound of a cracking branch.
Speeding his pass he ran through the watery pools, water splashing over his black boots.
He ran and he ran, for hours it seemed, untill he reached a deserted path which seemed to lead to a village a little further.
The village looked buried in the shadow of the full moon.
He slowed his pass down and followed the path leading to it, while rocks blocked his way here and there.

A mercenary with horse and wagon approached him, but stopped when he saw the young man walking.
”Ya goin’ to the town up there, lad?”, he asked and pointed at the village behind him.
The boy nodded and the mercenary shook his head.
”Ain’t wise to go there, my boy. Strange things happen there, strange things I tell ya!”
”I see..”, the boy replied in a soft voice, almost a whisper.
He continued to walk again, heading for the town still.
Behind him, the mercenary shook his head while watching him.
”Young people these days don’t know what’s good for ’em”, he muttered and continued his way, away from the village.

Not much later the young man arrived at the gates of the village and made his way in.
He looked around for signs of life and stepped towards an old man sitting in front of his house.
”Excuse me, old man, but can you tell me where I can find an inn?”
The old man took a good look at the young one before him. He had this strange aura surrounding him, that he could not quite place.
”Around the corner on your left is the Golden Coin inn”, he just simply replied.
The boy thanked him and went as he had said.
Upon entering the inn he walked towards the owners desk.
”I’d like to hire a room.”
”Excellent!”, the inn owner said. ”Your name please?”
A pair of black, ice cold eyes stared at him from beneath a hood.
”My name is Sodi”.